Soccerchic Scribblings

Sometimes...

I get scared of being burned...and I cope with it the only way I know how. I put up walls. The thing that bothers me about this, is often those walls hurt the people I don't want to hurt, and instead of keeping me from being burned they end up hurting me in the end. Yet, it is my knee jerk reaction any time I feel threatened or unsure. I don't know how you change this...I'm trusting eventually God will heal that part of me, or perhaps it will be the thorn in my side that I have to fight for the rest of my life. There are some people in my life who do not deserve these walls, and they've proven themselves trust worthy again and again...and yet, the moment I feel like things are uncertain, I will build these walls. I am hoping someday that will not be the case...for right now, I am using the buffer to protect me...it's not about you.

Labels: Ramblings

posted by Adventures of a Girl @ 3:23 PM