Soccerchic Scribblings

Finding a balance....

I realized today, that it doesn't bug me anymore when you do certain things. Funny how that is, how you some things take so long to work through, or are so much a part of you, and then one day you realize they are no longer important. I must say, I smiled when I finally realized this fact. It wasn't in a "I'm happy I got the last word" way, but more so "I'm happy that things that sometimes seem so huge - aren't always."

I tend to make things a competition. Anyone who knows me well, knows this about me. All you need to do is watch me play a soccer game, in which I am injured, and will refuse to come off the field. Some people call it stupidity, and I guess it can definately be that at times. I have worked over the past few years to tone down my competitive side, to be not as quick to jump at a debate or have a showdown. However, I still find this competitive tendency to run through my veins more often then I would like.

I have made this a competition, who does what first, who moves faster, who becomes better, who wins. I have realized that by doing this I am only hurting myself - as anyone else that I am competing against, most likely had no idea it's a competition. You tend to take things a lot more personally when you are competitive.

This is a horribly written post, I admit it as I look at it. However, these are words running through my head, landing on pieces of paper. Random scribblings if you may, and one really cannot expect them to make much sense.

posted by Adventures of a Girl @ 4:55 PM